Some days we really want to CARPE DIEM irrespective of its consequences. This day is one of them. After break up, it is my first morning. Bit sad but full of freedom. Crying on the night of break up is kind of ritual isn’t it? Well I followed it religiously and am feeling all relaxed after successfully completing the traditional break up process. Now the next step is to catch up with my girls for our own girly chit chat. I wake myself up and take hold of my phone to text all my girlfriends/ sakhi saheliyan. Suddenly, mom enters with my bed tea along with her refreshing taunt “Make your phone your boyfriend”. Actually, that taunt is more like a slap on my wrong choices of boyfriends. I am imagining mom with that thug style goggles and cigar after her pro level punchline.
I am basically on a hunt for some hot boys now and it’s been so long that I haven’t flirted with one. The search is too long that it is evening from morning and I am successfully getting failed so I decide to meet my best friend Kavya. She is the only one who is able to take care of my after break up tantrums and mood swings.
Guess what? Her cousin from London is visiting her and I am invited to meet him, which is no less of an opportunity for my broken heart to get repaired again! Besides, he is so hot and the moment we met, that real game of eye contact has started already. He comes bit closer and talks to me. He is been talking and my eyes are all over him, his moving lips, his eyes, his smile and his cheek bones. Everything about him was so good. He seemed not only attractive but also a very decent and intelligent guy. A part of me wanted to ask for his phone number buy I am bit shy to ask for it. So I leave it the way it is and head back home bare hands.
I knew mom would again serve her thug style taunt and while opening the door, she throws her ever sweet line at me, ‘oh, you came too early’/’Thoda aur late aate beta’ and I am like, mom please, not today. Irritated I entered my room but it took no time to cheer up seeing notification in phone that Kavya tagged me in a pic on Instagram. I knew, she would have tagged Kunal (her cousin) as well. I know of his Instagram account now but the problem now is whether I send him the follow request or wait for his request? After waiting for a while I sent him the request (I know, it just happened!).
Only I know, how happy I was but who knew it wouldn’t last that long. I message him, ‘Hi’ and the conversation starts. As imagined, he seemed like a nice guy and kind of gentleman as well. But few hours into chit chat and it starts showing who he really was. First he says “I just noticed something in you and I am sorry for doing that”, I ask him what is it? He says “it is nothing, just leave it.” So I get even more curious about what he s noticed about me in such a short while. He creates suspense just to force me to ask him repeatedly, and stupidly I did exactly that.
After all, he replies, ‘you have really good tits and ass’. I am shocked and blank!
A supposedly decent guy and a gentleman just turned into a very disrespectful and ill-mannered male. Nobody ever talked to me like this and he doesn’t stop just there. You know what next thing he asked me for? He says, ‘I want you to send me your nudes’. It shook me up, how can somebody, whom I know only for like past 4 hours can ask me for my nudes? I obviously say ‘NO’ to him. And he sums it up by saying, ‘you are a whore!’ He ridiculed me for the things I didn’t do.
For an instance I started doubting myself, am I a whore just because I wanted to chat with a nice guy and tried to get to know him, just because he seemed nice and decent? His 5 minutes online chat made me feel disgusted. I deleted my Insta account out of frustration. I decided to keep away from so called ‘seemingly decent’ guys.
But it still makes me wonder why it is so hard for males to accept NO from a female? Is it an insult to their masculinity? Or they are just not used to it? They have been doing whatever they ever wanted for ages and a female saying NO to their disgusted fantasies is a blow to their ego. Well, sooner or later they will have to understand that a female is not a product which they can use at their will, female also carries a heart inside which beats and beats for all the right reasons. I appeal to all male population of the world that they better take a big size print out of ‘NO MEANS NO’ and paste on the their main door, when they leave the house, they read it out loud and then face the females outside!